What If.. you left in 24 hours

So I’m sitting in the hotel in Hollywood and I’m trying to process what is about to happen in my life but I feel like it hasn’t hit me yet. I have no idea what to write and I’ve been thinking about it for days. Shouldn’t I be anxious nervous scared wanting to hop on a flight to Ohio not Guatemala tomorrow. To be honest I feel like it’s hard to process because I’m on vacation right now but tomorrow my vacation is over.

 Life is going to be hard tomorrow, I have to say the last of my good-byes to my father and mother which will be the hardest by far, walking away from my parents will break me, I am trying to hold back tears as I write this. Knowing we are going in two different directions this is the first time I’ve been away from my parents for over three months as well. Obviously I will miss them. Pray for our last minutes together, pray that our goodbye will not be a time of worries, or tears but a time of excitement for what is about to happen in my life and that each day is a day closer to when I will see them again. Please pray for them as they are very worried for me but God will provide ways for us to stay connected and be able to talk and put them at ease. Goodbyes haven’t been easy but I look at them as c’ya later.

What if you were about to leave everything at home for 11 months. What if you had to leave your family, friends and people you love for a year. What if you were about to travel to 11 different countries where you can’t drink their water, have to wash your fruit and vegetables, and could get malaria. What if you had to kill your own meals, and a host family may not eat so you can. What if you had to live in a tent for 11 months on a blow up sleeping mat and carry all your luggage with you in a backpack. what if you had to live off of $2-$3 a day.  What if you were about to leave the country and have no alone time, get aggravated with team mates, annoyed, tired, homesick, no energy, sick and have G.I problems for 11 months. What if you could go bungee jumping in Costa Rica, rafting in Africa, climb a volcano is Guatemala, shower in a waterfall in the Philippians. What if you could hold an orphan, show someone love who has never felt it before, build a house, help cook a meal, go into prisons, help clean up slums, or help the poor and needy. What if you got to do this all for the Kingdom, what if you got to tell the nations about God and how he sent His son to die for us what if you got to tell someone He died on the cross for our sins so we could be free. What if you got to tell someone they can have hope too, that there is going to be a revival in the nations, what if you got to tell people about eternal life and this everlasting love. What if you got to tell prostitutes in Thailand how much they are loved and how God wants to save them. What if everyone you meet you try to find Jesus in them. What if you got to spend 11 months with strangers who become family and you will see in heaven. What if you were the one going. What if it was because you were called to go and leave everything in America where things wouldn’t be handed to you anymore and you don’t have the simple luxuries like a coke with ice. What if the Lord will be protecting you the whole time his angels surrounding you everywhere you go and keeping you safe. What if this was all for the Glory of God because of His grace, mercy, love and because he saved us. What if you are going to tell the Nations about our Lord and Savior, to bring kingdom to earth and share your joy and love with the broken hearted that will no longer be broken. What if you had to trust in the Lord with all your heart and faith not everyday but every second, what if you were about to go from a girl to becoming a woman of God. What if you had no contril over your futrure, you had no idea what could happen. What if this was your life and you were leaving in 24hrs, would you go?

I leave in 24 hours it is so hard to believe, I am getting sick right now and starting to get a fever however ive started amoxicillin so please pray for me that I will get healthy this isn’t how I want to start my trip out but in these times it is where I will depend on the Lord even more for energy that I wont depend on myself

Please pray for…

• –          My squad (S- squad)
• –          CRASH of LOVE (my team)
• –          Unity
• –          Strength, boldness, courage
• –      Patience
• –          Good health
• –          Safe and smooth travels
• –          Protection
• –           Everyone we will come in contact with
• –          That we depend completely on the Lord
• –          Every day we seek God more, who He is, who we are in Him
• –          We will never lose faith or hope but it will increase everyday
• –          The Lord will teach us more and more everyday
• –          We will bring Kingdom everywhere we go
• –       For relationships back home that they will not decrease but increase that our time apart will not burden my friendships and family back home and the day we are back together will be a celebration