I’m lucky enough to be a member of The World Race’s D squad
(2nd Generation). I am surrounded by 38 other World Race
missionaries and 3 amazing squad leaders. When I look around me, I see 41
amazing men and women of God. I see strength. I see power. I see a faith deeper
than I’ve ever seen before. I see warriors of the gospel.
But this is not what everyone sees.
The depth of the inadequacy that my squadmates feel crushes
my heart. So many of us don’t feel worthy of the calling we have received. And
if I’m being honest, I’ve been there too.
“I’m always doubting. My faith
can’t be real.”
At training camp, I decided I wasn’t good enough because I
didn’t feel the presence of God like those around me. I always doubt the
existence of God in my heart. Faith is not logical, and to my mathematically
geared mind, is therefore not plausible.
But that’s why God put Thomas in the Bible. To prove that He
can still use those that doubt. To prove that doubts don’t define faith, and
they don’t define worthiness. (John 20:24-29)
“If anyone knew the junk in my
life, they would NEVER ask me to be a team leader.”
For others on my squad, it’s their pasts. The darkness that
they’ve lived through, or are still struggling to overcome seems too big a
barrier. It hinders them from seeing themselves as worthy for this calling.
But that’s why God called Paul to write the majority of the
New Testament. He chose Paul to prove that no sin is too big for the Lord to
overcome. No past is too dark for the Lord to use for His glory. (Acts 9)
“I’m not worth listening to.”
Still others feel that their words are not powerful enough;
that they aren’t worth listening to. They aren’t eloquent in their speech, and
struggle finding the words to say.
But that’s why God called Moses to lead the Israelites. God
chose a man with a speaking problem to lead, to preach, and to fight for his
people. God provided words and wisdom to a man who doubted his ability. (Exodus
4)
“I just became a Christian. I
don’t know enough scripture to preach the gospel.”
And still others feel that their faith isn’t strong enough
and they can’t quote enough Bible verses to be useful.
But that’s why God included the story of David and Goliath.
To prove that God chooses the weak and the small to bring down the mighty
barriers to faith. (1 Samuel 17)
The truth is this: God chose us despite our weaknesses. He
hand picked us from among billions of others in the world, and has asked us
personally to preach to the nations the gospel of Christ.
And that is why, when I look around me, I see the power of
God working through 42 imperfect people to bring the kingdom of God to earth.
So if you’re feeling unworthy, then you’re perfect.
For “God chose the weak things of the world to shame the
strong. God chose the lowly things of this word and the despised things-and the
things that are not-to nullify the things that are.” – 1 Corinthians 1:27-28
And God says “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made
perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses
so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I
delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in
difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” – 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
So yes, we are a squad of imperfection and of unworthiness.
But that is why we are powerful, and that is why we were chosen.
My Squad at training camp! Which happens to be the only picture I have of our squad. 🙂
