“I was not appointed by any group of people or any human authority, but by Jesus Christ himself and by God the Father, who raised Jesus from the dead.” Galations 1:1
I’m lost for words to express how in love I am with my Beloved. He has given me everything. Over the last year He has shown me so much. And I know that He is going to show me even more over the next year. This journey that I’m about to embark on is one I will remember for the rest of my life. Not as an 11 month mission trip, but as the beginning of the rest of my life in servitude to my Savior. He has placed in me a desire. A desire to be near Him. A desire to do as He has called me to do. To love His people with a new and wonderful love. To walk with Him as He guides me through this beautiful world He has created. I can’t wait to move in His spirit like I have never done before. To “Heal the sick, raise the dead, cure those with leprosy, and cast out demons.” (Matt 10:8) I know that He will guide me to these things, and I can only pray that I will accept His gentle guidance and do as He asks. I know that He has given me the authority and the power in Him do to the things He has called me to do and I am ready to accept my role in the kingdom and be a warrior for my King. I know that I have been called to be a front line warrior. I can not sit on the sideline and watch as the battle wages on around me. I have been called to go full ahead. If this means that I go into dangerous places then so be it. If He has called me to those places then He has a purpose for me to fulfill, and in that I am blessed to be apart of His mission. The only place I want to be is where He wants me.
I love Him with all my heart. He is my eternal lover and my Beloved. My heart burst with joy at the thought of His beautiful face. His arms comfort me in all I do. He is beautiful! He is majestic! Worthy of praise! Yahweh.
I know this journey will have its challenges, but I know that He will teach me in these trials, and that my faith will be tested, but it will have its chance to grow! I know that He will teach me to “count it all joy” (James 1:2). I know that even in times of hardship He will teach me to have joy in Him. I trust Him with everything that I have even now, but I know that this too will grow as I learn to lean on Him more with each day. I hope to learn to love Him more and more with the love that I will some day love my husband with. I pray that all my affections and attention will be focused on Him in this next year of my life, and the years to come. I pray that I will learn to give every part of my life to Him and that His spirit will guide me to the hidden places of His heart. That I wouldn't be satisfied with the mundane, but rather that I would strive for the extraordinary. I pray that I wouldn’t only live in the physical, but in the spiritual as well. That the spiritual would become my physical and there would be no separation of the two. I pray that I will learn to love Him more with an everlasting love! I pray that I will show my love for Him in such a way that everyone will know that I belong to Him and Him alone.
I can’t wait to spend eternity with Him, but for now I will carry out as He directs me here. “I'm torn between two desires: Sometimes I want to live, and sometimes I long to go and be with Christ. That would be far better for me, but it is better for you that I live.” (Pil 1:23-24) This is a beautiful time in my life and I’m so excited to share in it with my Beloved.
