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So God, creator of the universe has called me into long term missionary ministry.
When He first asked I said maybe, the second time (earlier this year) I said yes, now He is asking me again…
God : Shrena, dear, do you trust me?
Me: Yes of course…
(2 hours later, sitting in a coffee shop in South Africa in tears, looking at the end of my ability).
Lord, I do not , but I want to trust you.
I do not want to owe anyone anything. I want all my needs met all the time. I want nothing but the best of everything all the time.
Lord, I have nothing else to give to this race financially.
Lord why am I here broke, sad and disheartened?
Why am I not enjoying fully this beautiful town of White River in South Africa.
Why did you let me get this far and not finish?
Lord, I can not see beyond this lack of $2917… Help me please!
God : Help you what Shrena?
Help you see that I love you more than the $2917 bucks needed to continue this race? Of course child, I gave my all for you! I gave my son on a cross that you could join me in the heavenly realm for all days. My child, I called you into long term mission. If you finish this or not, if you are state side or not, I have called you into me for a long time, working out the mission I have set before you. I have the details and the plan.
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air:they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow:they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat? ’ or ‘What shall we drink? ’ or ‘What shall we wear? ’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. (Matthew 6:25-34)
Me: Lord, how do I be? How do I just move on with life knowing I might not get what I want?
God : You trust me baby girl! You recall my faithfulness and you rejoice with true joy (accepting that I see you, I know what you need, I care about how you feel, and that I have a plan).
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
Be not wise in your own eyes;
fear the Lord, and turn away from evil.
It will be healing to your flesh
and refreshment to your bones.” (Psalms 3:5-8)
Lord thanks for training camp in Georgia.
Thanks for Launch from Georgia to Serbia.
Serbia, what a great time God.
Lord thanks for your patience in Albania.
Farther thanks for taking me to Greece and allowing me to celebrate with you.
Macedonia, I know your love is real , continue to protect them from Spiritual attacks God! May I go back some day? I am excited to see your revival explode there!
South Africa and Fears, you are clearing it all up. Thanks for the healing thats going on right now.
Lord please continue to protect my heart as I open it for all to see. Its so much easier when its just you and me.
