This month has been crazy.
When I first got invited to travel on The World Race, I was on top of the world. Since then, it’s been pretty rocky. When I found out that I had to raise $6,000 in one month, I immediately became skeptical. I’m a college student, I have a job, I have an apartment, I pay bills…I don’t have $6,000 just chillin in my pocket ready to be spent. I had no idea how on earth I was going to raise $6,000, but I knew that God was going to take care of me. People would ask me, “what if you don’t raise the money in time?” but I knew that wasn’t an option. I had faith that God would take care of me. And He did, just not how I wanted Him to (AKA. quickly). I had multiple generous donations, but when I looked at my account today and saw that I had $3,600 towards my goal of $6,000, my heart sank. What if I don’t get it? What if I have to postpone my trip? But God stepped in again and showed His glory.
The payments will take a few days to process, but as of right now, I have $6,050 towards my trip.
How awesome is that!? I love that, not only did God provide me with the money for my $6,000 deadline, but he threw in an extra $50, just to show that He is MORE than capable.
With that being said, I am sorry God that I have doubted you. It’s really hard to trust that everything will be okay when I can’t see the end result. It’s really hard to give everything up to God when my desire is to control, plan and fix things.
These past few weeks, Ive really been struggling. Schoolwork has been overwhelming. I’ve been so busy and so tired that it’s really been a struggle for me to seek God first in the mornings. I haven’t maintained the constant contact with Him that brings me peace. I’ve really been struggling with temptation. It’s been really hard for me to leave my past behind. But I know that God has called me to bigger and better things.
I have not been putting God first lately. I have let myself become overwhelmed. I have let myself become distracted. I have let my fear become bigger than my faith. But God has still remained faithful to me. Even when I fail Him, He stays faithful!
I am so thankful for a God who loves me despite my faults.
I am so thankful for a God who puts up with all of my crap.
I am thankful that He has promised to take care of me.
I am thankful that He has provided.
I am thankful that He has paved a way for me and that He walks before me.
I am thankful for this life.
No matter how much I mess up, God is always there. No matter what I do, His love always remains. I serve a wonderful, amazing, powerful, gracious, loving, and merciful God. I serve a God who gives me more than I deserve. I serve a God who loves me and takes care of me.
No matter what, He is ALWAYS good.
“My God is SO BIG, SO STRONG, and SO MIGHTY. There is NOTHING my God cannot do.”
