As I was driving tonight, I started to think about Easter. I started to thank the Lord for sending Christ to die for me. I thought about how great an act of love it was and how much I want so badly to repay the love shown to me. I started to think about those who don’t know Christ. I said to God “I wish there was something I could do to make up for the love that they don’t give you” and he responded with “…but you can”. I know that there is nothing I could do that could ever compare to the love Christ has for me, but if there are so many people who don’t know Him, and my heart is broken for them, the least I can do is share the love and joy of Christ with them.
I will be leaving soon to go spread His love all over the world. While that is great, it really isn’t that hard for me. It’s what God’s called me to do and I’ve accepted that. What’s hard for me is changing my attitude every day. It may seem like changing my attitude would be a lot easier than leaving the country, but for me it isn’t.
Sometimes life is downright hard.
Some days, Satan throws a big ole punch to the face, and a lot of times, I let him steal my joy. How much do I treasure something if I let it be stolen so easily?
Some days, I want to fit in, so I gossip about people when I really don’t think badly about them.
Some days, when someone asks how I am, I say “Ehh…I’m alright.” when in reality, I really don’t have much to complain about at all. Am I alive? Does Christ still love me and take care of me? Yes? Then it may not have been an easy day, but it’s always good.
I want an attitude change.
When Satan tries to bring me down, I want to look into his face and tell him that my heart belongs to Jesus.
When negativity is spoken, I want to speak positivity and love.
When someone asks how I am, I want to radiate genuine joy.
I don’t want to fit in and just be alright. I’ve been called to stand apart. I’ve been called to be a light that reaches the depths of darkness. And right now my light’s not shining too bright.
I know that an attitude adjustment will not come from within me, but from Christ living through me. I alone am not strong enough to handle everything that Satan will throw me, but by seeking the Lord, I can be strong enough.
A few songs run through my head, cause that’s how I think…
“You are stronger, You are stronger. Sin is broken. You have saved me! It is written, ‘Christ is risen!’ Jesus, you have set me free!”
“There is power in the name of Jesus to break every chain”
“Set a fire down in my soul that I can’t contain, that I can’t control. I want more of you God.”
“My heart, my soul, Lord I give you control. Consume me from the inside out.”
The Lord has the power to break any chain of sin, I just have to give it up to him. I know this will be a daily battle, but I’m choosing to start here. I know I will struggle, but the Lord knows my heart. As long as I am seeking His face, I will be alright. He will protect me, He will guide me, and He will carry me all the way. Through His strength, I can do all things.
