I find myself having a constant “aha!” moment in life. When things don’t seem to be going my way and I don’t seem to have any peace in the current state of my life, that’s when God is like “I got you’re back, don’t worry. It’s all part of the plan” and I never fail to be surprised every time it happens.
I decided last night that I would end my day in a time of prayer and scripture and journaling which is usually not how I end my nights (I usually fall asleep to the sweet sound of Friends on the tv). The Lord used my World Christian Foundations teacher to show me exactly what I needed in my life.
www.utmost.com is an incredible daily devotional website and last night hit me hard:
- “Stubbornness and self-will will always stab at Jesus Christ. It may hurt no one else, but it wounds His Spirit.”
OUCH! Okay, God, I get it. I suck and my personal agenda gets in the way of doing your will a lot.
- “Whenever we get set on our own agendas, we persecute Him.”
We place ourselves before the Lord of Lords daily and it is basically denying His will for us and our lives.
- “Is the Word of God tremendously penetrating and sharp in me as I hand it on to you, or does my life betray the things I profess to teach?”
This was the one that hit me the hardest. Am I being as affected and ruined by Gods word as I want the person receiving it to be? See, God wants to ruin our lives completely so that He is able to show you that He is the only one you need in your life and until He gets complete ruin, He won’t stop. Until you are so bothered by His words, He won’t quit. He will never stop pursuing you as His child.
So as I walked around my campus today, two things were stuck in my head “Is the Word of God extremely sharp in me for the next person to receive it?” and “How can you go to foreign countries and evangelize and lead people to know the love of Christ if you cannot do it in your own community?”
Your relationship with Jesus Christ is not a one-and-done type thing. It’s a process. It’s a daily commitment to making sure that the word is sharp in you and it’s sacrificing all the things in this world for the divine reward that we so desperately yearn for.
Hebrews 4:12-13 “For the Word of God is living and effective and sharper than any double-edged sword, penetrating as far as the separation of soul and spirit, joints and marrow. It is able to judge ideas and thoughts of the heart. No creature is hidden from Him, but all things are naked and exposed to the eyes of Him to whom we must give an account.”
