About a week ago we were blessed to have our squad leaders visit Caminul Felix! I am continually encouraged by the love, support, and prayers they pour out over our squad and people that just happen to cross their paths. One of the days they were with us I was having a crazy amount of pain in my jaw. Much of my life I have struggled with grinding my teeth in my sleep. I started wearing a retainer at night, but I guess I didn't enjoy it to much because most mornings I found it halfway across the room. This particular day the pain started in the afternoon and got so bad I could not smile, talk, or even dream of eating. I was trying not to voice or show how much pain I was in. So I decided to go spend sometime outside alone, but was stopped by Philip (squad leader) to see if I would eat dinner with him and some other people from our group. I told him, in as few as words as possible, I couldn't eat. He jumped at the opportunity to pray for me. I said yes not believing it would really make a difference. I closed my eyes stood there and listened honestly just waiting for it to be over so I could just go spend sometime alone. That is when the left side of my face got hot and tingly…. then the middle….. then the right side…. then I felt as if I was standing on the very tops of my tippy toes. This only lasted for a few seconds and Philip stopped praying. I opened my eyes and realized ALL the pain in my jaw was gone! Needless to say I sat down and had a wonderful meal (prepared by Christy- other squad leader)and couldn't stop smiling!
This brought up some questions though… Did this really happen or was I just making it up?? I have seen other people healed, do I believe that God wouldn't do that for me?? HE loves, cares,and knows me this well????
I know that I didn't do anything to MAKE this happen. It is still hard for me to grasp and explain, but I believe that HE does love, care, and know me well enough to want to do this miracle for me. Some days I believe this more than others but I want to start fully living this out. If I have prayed for people and seen crazy things happen WHY WOULDN'T He want to do the same for me. I went to church today and the pastor was talking about our identity in Christ. He said that when we see ourselves in our true identity in Christ hell shakes. AMEN! This year I want to continue to grow in that identity and believe that my God DOES love, care, and know me enough to want to see me healed inside and out!
P.S. It is over a week later and I have not worn my retainer since this happened. Still no pain….
