I have shared a few doubts with some of you. I wanted to take this time to share where I am at.
I have been bogged down with fear.
Motionless.
I have let sickness, loneliness, doubts tell me that now is not the time to go.
I have looked at money thinking it had power.
I had been looking at my past thinking I can only repeat what’s there.
But finally I prayed.
I have peace.
And I know this is from the reason I was going in the first place.
I want to be in the dirt with the broken.
I want to be broken.
I want to see poor that KNOW God.
I want to tell people about the love of Him I know.
But I also know, I need this race more than the people on the race need me.
I know I will be changed.
I know I will be stripped of my comforts so that I feel what’s real again.
I know I will be pushed to do what’s out of my strengths so that when I succeed, I know it’s not me…but Him.
I know my flesh will be angry but my spirit will be free.
I’m excited.
I can’t wait to see theological debates disappear and a respect for God being God come back.
There will be pain.
There will be tears.
There will be struggling I can’t predict.
And underneath, there will be truth.
Because I am His.
I’m a beloved daughter called outside of what I’ve always known
To go on an adventure with her Father.
This is where I am.
Thank you all for praying for me!
I am leaving in 15 days!!! CRAZY!
