This journey God has been taking me on is ridiculous and I love it!
I have wanted to go to Africa since I was in middle school but I knew I was supposed to be in school till I graduated high school. God taught me so much in middle/high school. He taught me about trust in Him within my relationships with other people. He taught me what a beautiful poet He was with His creation and within His pursuit of me.
Then college came…. I hated and loved college. It was really hard for me to stay in college because I felt like I was just learning about so many people who changed lives and I was stuck researching and writing papers instead of letting their lives change mine.
I dropped out of college for a semester and changed my major 4 times. I also transferred a lot~ (MTSU was my fourth college)
I decided to get a liberal arts degree so I could pick what I wanted to learn and ended up just taking a million religion and psychology classes.
Well my religion classes made me go through this doubtful weird place with God. I would hear things in class and knew that it was not truth but I wouldn’t go to God with it. I didn’t look to see what the bible said and I didn’t pray about it… I was just embarrassed that I couldn’t explain everything so I ignored it all. Well let me tell you, that is not a good tactic because depression will start and it’s not a depression you can pinpoint easily. (pinpointing as in I didn’t know how to vocalize why I felt the way I did)
Anyway, all that to say… God brought me through college to teach me so much about Him and me and what our relationship should be. He can handle my doubts and fears and he wants to hear them so I can give them up to Him. He is in control and powerful. He is full of love and patience even when we don’t deserve it.
That time I sat in depression with questions unanswered and the feeling of darkness sucking me in was horrible but He called me to the World Race. This is amazing because He is now taking me to the very places with the religions I struggled with to show me Him! I would have never appreciated what the World Race has to offer as much as I do now that I have been taught and struggled through each of these things.
God is amazing and you may be taken through some things you don’t understand the purpose for but there is a reason.
