So I’ve been trying to write a blog for about a week now. About the amazing people we’ve met, about the amazing places we’ve gotten to see, and what God is doing in El Salvador. Because it’s awesome. I’m serious. Jesus is all up in El Salvador’s business. I can’t wait to tell you about it. But the problem is, I’m just feeling broken. I’m feeling sad.
Sad that I’m missing all the children/families I’ve met since Launch.
Sad that another month is almost over.
Sad that we’ll be leaving Central America soon.
Sad that team changes may/will be coming.
Sad that I won’t get to see all of my family at the airport.
Sad that Prim died.
Sad that the girl from The Help kept having miscarriages.
Sad that I’m going to have to say goodbye to some wonderful people in a couple days.
I’m kind of a big ball of emotions right now.
I might be smack dab in the middle of brokenness. Maybe. Maybe alottle. It’s easy to forget just how blessed I am in the middle of this brokenness. Or that Jesus is on my side and by my side. I may have forgotten that for a minute. So here is what I know:
I am so happy that I’ve gotten to meet so many wonderful people.
I am so blessed by every child I’ve had the opportunity to meet so far.
I am overwhelmed by the beauty God has allowed me to see through His creation.
I am so blown away by the ways Jesus is moving in El Salvador.
I am so touched by the people committed to reconciliation- of families and of hearts to Jesus.
I am so inspired by the ways people are showing Jesus’ love.
And best of all, I am so dearly loved by my Father- despite my weaknesses.
So for now, I’m depending on Jesus to heal the broken bits. I’m choosing to follow Him despite all my feelings. I’m choosing to trust that His plan is best. I’m trusting in Him to be the source of my joy and peace.
“Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now“
