I leave for Training Camp in about 2 hours. I’m packed (except for a few last minute things) and I’m so excited. But can I tell you something else? I have never been so terrified.
I feel like God’s really been preparing my heart for this over the past few months. It’s amazing how much He’s changed me just since I applied for the WR. I don’t know how noticeable these changes are to everybody else, but to me, they seem huge. He has grown my faith in Him so much. He is teaching me to be more loving of others and less judgmental (I hate that I’ve been this way). And lately, He’s been teaching me to listen for His voice and obey.
With just 2 hours before I leave, fear is building in me. I am so terrified that I won’t give God full reign of my heart, words, thoughts, emotions, and actions. I’m afraid I’ll hold Him at arms length and won’t let Him fully work in and through me. I can be such a control freak and I’m good with giving God control of my life in my normal setting, where I feel some sense of stability. This week, I’ll be completely out of my comfort zone and how much or how little I let God take control will be even more evident. I want to give God full reign. I want to put all of my trust in my Rock.
Thankfully, I was able to read a blog last night that really challenged me. (Click here) It encouraged me to stop holding God at arms’ length. There is safety (from fears, etc), peace, and comfort in the arms of God. All I have to do is receive it and walk in it. I just have to let the chains fall to the ground and walk away from them. Can I tell you how much I love that all God asks is that we accept Him and His love? Pretty amazing in my book.
I would love your prayers this week as I meet the people that will be my family for the next year. Pray that there will be peace and unity. Pray for fears to fall away. Pray that love would abound. Pray for safety. And pray for the weather as we live in tents for the next week. :-p
Thank you to everyone that’s invested in me emotionally, spiritually, and financially. Without your love and commitment, I would not be who I am today. Thank you for the difference you’ve made in my life. Thank you for loving me well. I pray that I will learn to love you and others the way that y’all have loved me (something else God’s working on :-p).
My next financial deadline is December 18th, so a little ways away, but I am hoping to meet that deadline in the next few weeks (before I announce this at my job). If you feel led to give, you can click on the “support me” link at the top or the top leftish side of this page. Also, you can mail checks to:
Adventures In Missions
PO Box 534470
Atlanta, GA
30353-4470
Just be sure to include my name in the memo line so that it will be applied to my account.
Thank you to all of you that have given and will give. I can’t wait to see what God does in the next year. I am so excited to have the opportunity to go and to be used as God sees fit.
