I’m half way through training camp!!!!!!!
I could not have imagined what the past four days have been like. I am not able to share everything that has happened, but there is one key day I want to share with everyone. It has been freezing cold up here in north Georgia which I was not expecting. We were camping in a camp ground somewhere near Helen, GA and it was cold, but absolutely beautiful. On Tuesday we did a surrender activity. We all met in a grassy area and were told to take a log and write on the log things we need to surrender to God.
Now, bit of background info. We had been spending the time identifying our hurts, pains, and loss, and learning how to grieve them and find healing from God. This is was a big thing for me. I have had lots of hurts, pains, wounds, and losses in my life. Some I have found healing for and some that have plagued me for many years. These hurts and pains have caused me to live a life of fear. Fear of failing, fear of rejection, fear of not being good enough, fear of being abandoned. These fears have held me back so much in my life. God has used the past few days to identify the root of these fears and finding healing through prayer.
Okay, back to the surrender activity. I wrote on my log the things I wanted to surrender to God. All my fears. My dream of getting married. My independence. and my will for my life. After we did this we had to wait to be released to go on this trail. I was one of the first people to be finish with my log but I had to wait almost 2 hours to wait to be released. I am not a patient person. I sat there for two hours trying not to get frustrated. I was wondering why they kept passing me? Why wouldn’t they release me? Towards the end of the two hours I started praying, God why? Is there something I need to give up, to surrender? God, whatever you want I’ll do it. After that I was finally prayed for and released. We were to walk around this beautiful lake. I got back to our camp site and I had to follow this trail straight up the side of a very large wooded hill. It was hard to do when you are carrying a log. I finally got to the top and thought I was finished. I met with one of the leaders to pray. She asked if I was ready to surrender my log and I said yes. She then pointed me to another very large straight up wooded hill. I was tired and sore but I kept going. It was hard and tiring and frustrating but I finally made it to the top where the cross was. I threw that log down and said no more. No more God was I going to carry these things with me. I totally wanted to be free. I just want to be the woman God has created me to be and follow the plan he has for me. I felt like I had a huge burden lifted off my chest. I felt complete joy and freedom. It was so incredible.
This is just a snapshot of what God has been doing at training camp. I have gotten to know 54 new people. I am on an amazing squad and I will soon find out who will be on my team. I am so thankful for the experience that I have had so far. Can’t wait to see what God is going to do next.
I could not have imagined what the past four days have been like. I am not able to share everything that has happened, but there is one key day I want to share with everyone. It has been freezing cold up here in north Georgia which I was not expecting. We were camping in a camp ground somewhere near Helen, GA and it was cold, but absolutely beautiful. On Tuesday we did a surrender activity. We all met in a grassy area and were told to take a log and write on the log things we need to surrender to God.
Now, bit of background info. We had been spending the time identifying our hurts, pains, and loss, and learning how to grieve them and find healing from God. This is was a big thing for me. I have had lots of hurts, pains, wounds, and losses in my life. Some I have found healing for and some that have plagued me for many years. These hurts and pains have caused me to live a life of fear. Fear of failing, fear of rejection, fear of not being good enough, fear of being abandoned. These fears have held me back so much in my life. God has used the past few days to identify the root of these fears and finding healing through prayer.
Okay, back to the surrender activity. I wrote on my log the things I wanted to surrender to God. All my fears. My dream of getting married. My independence. and my will for my life. After we did this we had to wait to be released to go on this trail. I was one of the first people to be finish with my log but I had to wait almost 2 hours to wait to be released. I am not a patient person. I sat there for two hours trying not to get frustrated. I was wondering why they kept passing me? Why wouldn’t they release me? Towards the end of the two hours I started praying, God why? Is there something I need to give up, to surrender? God, whatever you want I’ll do it. After that I was finally prayed for and released. We were to walk around this beautiful lake. I got back to our camp site and I had to follow this trail straight up the side of a very large wooded hill. It was hard to do when you are carrying a log. I finally got to the top and thought I was finished. I met with one of the leaders to pray. She asked if I was ready to surrender my log and I said yes. She then pointed me to another very large straight up wooded hill. I was tired and sore but I kept going. It was hard and tiring and frustrating but I finally made it to the top where the cross was. I threw that log down and said no more. No more God was I going to carry these things with me. I totally wanted to be free. I just want to be the woman God has created me to be and follow the plan he has for me. I felt like I had a huge burden lifted off my chest. I felt complete joy and freedom. It was so incredible.
This is just a snapshot of what God has been doing at training camp. I have gotten to know 54 new people. I am on an amazing squad and I will soon find out who will be on my team. I am so thankful for the experience that I have had so far. Can’t wait to see what God is going to do next.
