This blog post was from a night all they way back from training camp in october. I really felt like the Lord wanted me to share this story so here it is!
One night during training camp when Ron our speaker was there, we had a night that he wanted us to experience God. He told us that we shouldn’t have any expectations on how we will experience God, but that he will be there. As the night progressed I saw individuals fall from the experience of being consumed from the Holy Spirit and people laughing from Joy from being filled. I saw these individuals and I wanted to have that experience. I was praying to God, please give me that! I wanted to have what they have! After about five minutes Lisa, one of my WR coaches came over to me and started praying for me. Pretty soon after that she started praying in tongues for me and I thought here it comes, I am going to have the experience I was asking for. Lisa then told me a vision she was having, that God was putting his armor over me like in Ephesians 6:13-17,
13 therefor put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 stand from, then with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breast of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
while Lisa was telling me how she was having her vision of God putting his armor on me, I saw her vision clearly as well. God’s armor is so beautiful words will never do it justice. Lisa continued to pray for me and then when she left I couldn’t helped but be disappointed. I wanted to laugh with Joy from the Holy Spirit or be completely consumed by it, and it didn’t happen. I kept praying for God to do this for me, I wanted it so badly. I prayed and prayed for it, but I soon realized that it wasn’t going to happen. I started asking God why he wasn’t filling me with the Holy Spirit like the people I saw around me. God then spoke to me and said, “Scott you will always receive what you need.” I knew that I was being so selfish after God spoke to me. An incredible prophecy was spoken over me and I had the vision of the prophecy as well. God gave me so much that night but I wasn’t happy with what God gave me. I think it is totally ok, in fact I would encourage people to alway want more from God, but at the same time we always have to be grateful for what he has given us.
