This was the day I was dreading.  My first squatty potty.  I thought that a toilet with no seat was bad, but this hole in the ground?  I had heard about these, but this would be my first time.

After all the years of beating my knees, I am thankful when they don´t cause me pain when I walk.  But getting down in a deep squat for long enough to get it all out, I was not confident of this.  When I go camping, pooping in the woods is one of the things that I dread, I usually wait until the last minute, but always find some nice set up, or branch to hold or tree to lean against.  Not here.

The bathroom at Pastor Marino´s house is mud walls about 5 feet high, and a potato sack for a door.  When I stand to pee in the hole, I can have a conversation with the others, because the bathroom is less than twenty feet from the kitchen or the dining room.

I looked at these mud walls and worried that if I leaned my back against them, they might come down, all I could do was squat and hope that I maintained balance.

I held out for two days.  And then, it was an emergency.  So I ran in, pants to my knees, and did my best squat.  Bullseye.  Right in the hole.  Then my quads started to burn.  My legs started to shake, and I was only half done.  I was going to have to stand up, or fall.  So I did my best pinch, and wiped, to ensure there was nothing going to fall in my jeans.  Once my legs stopped shaking, I went for my second set to failure.  This time I failed much sooner, and went through all this again.  After holding out for two days, I had a lot of work to do, but the body was weak, and I needed to rest.  So I wasn´t done going, but I was done.

I don´t know if it was the food, the altitude, or people dreading the bathroom, but this week was the worst smelling week for our whole team, and I´m not sure whether to throw my underwear away or wash them.