*I wrote this earlier today when I was waiting in the ER while my mother was getting tests done on her heart*
I’m sitting in the ER. My mom was complaining of chest pains that she’d apparently been having for a few days no and she asked me to take her in. I have to stay in the ER while she gets an EKG and some tests.
This happened before, several years age, and she ended up hospitalized because she’d had a massive panic attack. I’m praying that’s all this is. I’ve not told my sisters because I don’t want to cause unnecessary panic. Both of them are pregnant and neither needs the stress this unresolved situation would create.
But what can I do? Wait. Wait for results. Wait for someone to come get me or at least update me (which did not happen; I ended up having to request information on her and ask if I could see her).
Waiting is somewhat of a theme, though, isn’t it? Jacob waited for Rachel. The father waited for his son. David waited to become king. We wait on Jesus.
Although I admit to being impatient, and as my wonderful friend and squadmate put it “impatience breeds worry”… I am not worried. Worry won’t make the time go by faster and it won’t change the outcome. I pray to my sweet Lord that my mother has simply been overcome by worry. And when she comes out we are going to have a chat about this ‘worry’ thing. I have been a victim of worry more times than I can count, but once I realized all it is is a harmful immobilizing state of being, I was able to finally rest. Papa takes care of me regardless of how much I worry. It is so easy to just let go and find rest in Him. Even now, sitting here in this waiting room, I find rest. Because Papa is in control. He’s got this.
Believing that and having faith in Him doesn’t leave room for worry.
Update: My mother is doing okay. They ran an EKG and have found no problems with her heart, although her blood pressure was WAY high. They are holding her for observation until tomorrow though so prayers would be so appreciated! Thank you.
P.S. I wasn’t going to post this until she was out of the hospital, but my sisters found out all about it so I thought I’d go ahead and post this.
