As I get further and further from my acceptance date, everything seems to be feeling more real, little by little. I’ve already gotten to Zoom chat (which is basically video chatting with multiple people in a group) with quite a few of my squadmates and I love them so much already. I usually have a hard time really opening up and talking to people I don’t know and I just know it is the Lord working in me to allow me to dive head first into these relationships with these amazing people. I’ve written my support letter, and then I rewrote it because I didn’t like how it sounded. Now I am somewhat more happy with it, but in reality, I’m terrified of sending it out. I’m terrified of fundraising. If you know me, you know I loathe asking for money. I would rather go without than ask my own mother to even borrow money. I’m pretty self-sufficient, but when it comes to this….I can’t be. I need help and I need to ask for money and fundraise and I believe papa is going to teach me some big things through it. He is going to grow me through it, make me more mature, and realize most of all that he will grant His provisions for this because I desire to Go.
Last night during bible study we read Romans 1:5-7 and it really just confirmed my call, and it confirmed the peace He desires me to have through this process.
“And here’s what He’s done: He has graced us and sanctioned us as His emissaries whose mission is to spread the one true and obedient faith to all people in the name of Jesus. This includes you; you have been called by Jesus, God’s Anointed. To all those who are God’s beloved saints in Rome: May grace and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus, the Anointed One, surround you.” (Romans 1:5-7 The Voice)
When we read this I smiled. I knew He was speaking to me through that verse. I may not be in Rome and I may not be a saint, but He wants me to be surrounded by His grace and peace. What an amazing feeling it is to be able to bask in divine peace even just for a moment. And it is just for a moment because I am not strong enough to withstand anxiety. I cannot do it on my own. I look to Him constantly and seek His embrace because doubt and worry have been pursuing me consistently since my acceptance. Please pray for me in that respect.
I must start sending out my support letters, which is the easy part if there was one. Then I have to make the calls. I hate to bother people, but I know papa will give me the words to say and cover me in His great peace during that stressful time.
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