We are coming up on the completion of our sixth month on the field and God has done something so incredible over this past week.
In the lifestyle that we live you are constantly learning something new, but there isn’t much time to reflect on all of that new stuff that you are learning; so you just kind of take it and run with it. After a few months of that you come to a place where you start trying to reflect on everything but you just don’t have it in your mind to think about because there are a million other things to think about. So you begin to ask yourself things like, “am I really learning anything?” “Am I any different that I was on January 8th?” and “What the heck just happened?”
And then God goes and shows you exactly how much you have been learning and changing; but then He also shows you ways that He is going to continue to grow and stretch you.
That is what the past week or so has been for me. The camp that we are working at currently has a team from good ol’ Arlington, TX (that’s so close to my home) and they have been so much fun to talk to and get to know. Last night Alex and I sat and talked for hours about these things, and as we walked away from the conversation both of us were blown away that we have learned so much this year; but as today went on I was amazed to spend some more time reflecting and concluding that I still have so much to learn!!
This is a pretty exciting process to be on. It’s definitely hard, and I cry often, but it is so worth it. I’m not saying that at the end of my 11 months I will have everything figured out, but I am saying that I will definitely be walking in the right direction!
Some of the things that I have learned:
- Sometimes I just need to shut up and listen
- My worship can look totally different than your worship, but we are both still worshipping.
- The Holy Spirit is alive and moving, totally outside of the teeny tiny box that I had him in.
- Healthy communication is key!
Some things that I still need to work on:
- Finding complete satisfaction in the Lord.
- Healthy communication through frustration.
- I have amazing authority in Christ…use it!
- The tone in my voice is sometimes really harsh
- And so much more!
