So this month started off as a month of refinement when I opened a note from my friend Chelsea and I read, "Romans 6 is heavy on my heart right now. Read it and press into it! And know that I am praying that your identity as a slave to righteousness be strengthened this month."
All that I could think was, "Oh Shoot, what does that mean?!?!"
So as I continue to press into this thing God has given me two words;
Pride
Selfishness
These words are hard for me. I mean I am a pretty prideful person. I don't like to be told that I am not doing something well! But before all of the kicking and screaming started I gave this month to God and I told Him to do whatever it took to "refine" me! So as the desire to kick and scream and say no creeps back in, He graciously reminds me that I gave Him permission to do this in my heart, not that He needs it!
While spending time with Him the other day I came to the conclusion that I do struggle with these things, but I don't have a clue what to do about it. And so I asked God what to do. How do I go about becoming a humble, selfless person? I just don't even know how to go about that! But God is so good, and He didn't really answer me!
Yesterday it hit me, that God is humbling me….a lot right now!
Because it rains so much here it is not safe to do the physical labor that Pastor Luis wants us to do, so instead we spend time having worship and prayer! Because we have a deadline on April 1st, and several of us haven't met that deadline, that is what we spent our morning praying for.
We took turns, going around the circle lifting up our squad and our fundraising needs. It was such a wonderful time with Jesus, but it was then that it hit me; God is using this whole support raising thing to bring me to my knees in complete humility! God is humbling me in ways that I didn't even realize!!
God is so good!! And I can say, with my whole heart, that the Race is most definitely where I want to be, and I have great faith that God is going to provide the money that I need to continue on; but at the same time I have complete trust in Him and what He is doing in my life. Should He choose to send me back to Texas, I will go praising Him! But in the mean time I will stay here in Guatemala and praise Him in the rain, the very cold rain!!
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