I wrote a blog a few weeks ago on my identity. Like I said before I never thought my identity was a problem. I never realized that I didn’t know who I was. I never realized that I viewed myself negatively or wrong. I never knew that the way I viewed myself affected my identity in Christ. While studying identity in Vietnam the girls in Da Nang decided to do a cardboard identity video. We already wrote down some lies and truths about us. But when it came to deciding what to write on mine, I was stuck. I had a couple of ideas like ‘Defined by past sin’—‘Forgiven’ or ‘Found myself in other’—‘Found Christ in Me’. But the one that was tugging at my heart was about my image and how that affected my identity.
I haven’t always been the one to look in the mirror and see myself as beautiful. But that didn’t stop me from looking in the mirror. Instead of being content when I looked in the mirror, I would do other things to myself to make up for the way I looked. I could change my hair color. I could wear make up. I could dress cute. I could wear cute jewelry. I could change any of those in a quick second when and if I wanted to. The thing I couldn’t change so quickly is how I looked at myself.
I wouldn’t say I was obsessed with the way I looked, but it sometimes changed my attitude or confidence of that day. Since we’ve been studying and declaring truths over our lives and after several girls pouring life into me, I know that I’m beautiful in God’s eyes. He doesn’t see what earthly people see. I shouldn’t be worried with what others think (easier said than done). I also know that people don’t look at me and only see what I look like. I can shine the light of Christ through me. I can be the mirror of Christ.
This isn’t a quick fix. This takes time. This is something that is going to take time to fix. But I am now on the right track to love myself more than I have.
Here is the identity video!
I haven’t always been the one to look in the mirror and see myself as beautiful. But that didn’t stop me from looking in the mirror. Instead of being content when I looked in the mirror, I would do other things to myself to make up for the way I looked. I could change my hair color. I could wear make up. I could dress cute. I could wear cute jewelry. I could change any of those in a quick second when and if I wanted to. The thing I couldn’t change so quickly is how I looked at myself.
I wouldn’t say I was obsessed with the way I looked, but it sometimes changed my attitude or confidence of that day. Since we’ve been studying and declaring truths over our lives and after several girls pouring life into me, I know that I’m beautiful in God’s eyes. He doesn’t see what earthly people see. I shouldn’t be worried with what others think (easier said than done). I also know that people don’t look at me and only see what I look like. I can shine the light of Christ through me. I can be the mirror of Christ.
This isn’t a quick fix. This takes time. This is something that is going to take time to fix. But I am now on the right track to love myself more than I have.
Here is the identity video!
