While I was at training camp, during worship one night I had this vision of someone in a hole. They were trying with all their might to get out of it, but every time they tried to get out they would fall flat on their face and fall deeper into this hole. Deeper and deeper they fell, trying to get out of this hole they were sinking in. But they just kept trying and trying. Scratching at the walls, screaming and yelling, jumping, running into the wall, and trying with all their strength. But no mater what they did they could not get out. And then all of a sudden I saw that a hand reaching down to the bottom of this hole had been there this whole time, but the person just didn’t see it trying to help them out. I then heard a voice saying:
“I have been here this whole time trying to help you, but you didn’t see me. When will you realize you can’t do this alone with your own strength. But with My help you can do all things. (Philippians 4:13) All your fear, shame, doubt, and failure that’s been swallowing you and pulling you deeper and deeper into this hole has already been defeated. The fight is already won. (1 Corinthians 15:57) And all you have to do is let go. (Hebrews 12:1) Let go of the fear of being rejected. (2 Timothy 1:7) Let go of the shame that’s been holding you back. (Romans 10:11) Let go of the doubt you have, that I will not always be here for you. (Deuteronomy 31:6,8) Let you go, you are worth so much more. Let go, I love you. Let go, I have been here this whole time. Let go, and take ahold of my hand. Let go, I will help you out. I have been here waiting. All you have to do is take hold of my hand and I will help you. Let go and let Me.”
I then looked up from inside this hole and saw this hand reaching out to me. I let go of the shame and guilt and grabbed ahold of this hand, and it pulled me out.
I was in a field, there was a breeze blowing and it was really sunny. Like something you would see in a movie with the sun flare in the field of swaying flowers. I saw Him. I saw the person who helped me out of the hole. It was Jesus. I saw Jesus. And when I saw Him I ran to hug Him. To tell Him sorry. Sorry for not seeing Him sooner. But before I could even say I was sorry, I began to cry and He started comforting me, saying:
“I love you sweet, beloved daughter of mine. (John 1:12) You are worthy. You are cared for. You are enough. There is no need to be ashamed. I love you. You make me happy. I created you for such a special purpose. (Ephesians 2:10) You are chosen. (John 15:16) You are loved. Thank you for letting go. I have you, you don’t have to be afraid. I’m never letting go of you. I am yours and you are mine. (Isaiah 43:1) Forever.”
I was ashamed and kind of afraid of what this person, who pulled me out, would think of me. But when I saw His face I couldn’t help but smile and I felt this peace in my soul and my heart was overflowed with joy. After He said all those things to me, I began to cry even harder. But this time they were tears of comfort and joy. This joy had over taken my heart. I started laughing and laughing, and I could not stop. Jesus started laughing with me. And we laughed and danced and ran around in the field together. Just as if we were little kids without a care in the world.
And that was the end of my vision. I have never felt happier or as comfortable and free in my entire life as I did in that moment. I let go of a lot things that night. Things I didn’t even know I needed to let go of. I learned a lot about who I am in Christ and how He sees me. I know I needed to hear this and my hope is that someone else, maybe even you, needed to hear this too. Maybe you’re the person in the hole? maybe you’re the person crying to god? Or maybe you are holding on to things you need to let go of? My hope is that by reading this, God has spoken to you and maybe reveled some things you didn’t even know you needed to hear. I hope you now know that God is always there for you, even if you don’t see Him right away. I pray that you will let go of things that are holding you back from intimacy with the Lord. I hope you realize how much God really does love and care about you. God loves you so much. You are His beloved child. You are His and He is yours. Forever.
