This month has been a squad month for Fusion 2.0. This means that we have had 21 people living in a 5-bedroom house, with three toilets, three showers, and one large kitchen. We are in some of the closest community situations of the race, and you would think that community would be natural, that everyone would feel connected.
That is not true. The closer the living the conditions and the higher the amount of people in community, the more lonely one can become.
When one is alone, one recognizes the loneliness and can see what to do in response. When one is in community, it’s a lot harder to recognize why you are feeling alone, and harder to actively work to be part of the community. It has been this way for me this month.
The first week of the month, there were struggles just to get used to being around 21 other people all the time. As an introvert, it’s not the easiest thing in the world. As the month has gone on, I have had to ask people to check in with me, and force me to be out of my shell, because I started to stay away from community, causing loneliness to creep into my thoughts. There are times to be alone, but God made us for fellowship also, and we need to work on that side of life, too.
As hard as it has been, I’ve grown so much from relying on teammates and squad mates to help me stay present in ministry and community. My advice for those living in community and feeling utterly alone:
Get out of you. Focus on someone else for 10 minutes, and ask one person you trust to keep you from disappearing from the world. It may stretch you, but you will also appreciate it in the end.
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