Lately I have been having random urges to do things. For instance, I was sitting one of the couches in the lobby, having some time with emails, and just got the desire to start singing at the top of my lungs and dance down the hallway. I didn’t. And then sometimes I’ll be just chilling with teammates and I’ll suddenly want to go do some push-ups or some crunches. I don’t. Or when I am spending some time with God, and get the urge to jump up and down, or fall on my knees. I don’t often follow even these urges.
I always stop my mind and somehow talk myself out of doing whatever it is. I never quite understand from where the desires come, or why I think they are good ideas. I just always find a logical, or just any excuse really, to not do something to fulfill that desire.
Why do I feel this need to be reserved and not look like a fool? God doesn’t think I’m foolish or crazy. Of what am I afraid? Fear is not from God. Am I afraid of others laughing at me? God laughs with me, not at me. Am I afraid of me? Does all of me and being completely free or expressive scare me? God wants me to be free, not in a cage of my own restrictions.
So why do I talk me out of my desires?
#GodIsInControl #redefiningdisciple
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