For about two weeks now I’ve struggled with not feeling like I have an heart in my prayers. I am unwilling to offer them because I don’t know if they will work. I haven’t had faith to ask knowing I will receive what I have asked. I also have noticed a tendency to ask for things in prayer, and then repeat my requests many times throughout the day.
I know that the root of this is a lack of trust that my requests will be granted by my loving Father. He does know what is best for me, but I have trouble trusting he will give me what I need.
These thoughts came to light as we prayed over refugees for the last two weeks. We were always praying for them and asking God for certain things, but I just had trouble believing in what I was asking. Often, I would simply stop praying and just listen to the prayers of others.
As I am working through this, I keep going back to James’s words about asking in faith, believing and not doubting. And again from Paul that the prayers offered in faith with make a sick person well. Just because it’s stated in the bible doesn’t make it any easier to believe in my heart. It’s still a struggle.
I want passion to pray, a hunger and desire to ask and just know they will be provided. I don’t want to doubt and not trust. Lord, I hate not wanting to pray! Please soften my heart and store in my a passion and hunger for more of you.
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