Father and I have embarked on an interesting journey. When I meet him, I think of being in an unexplored jungle with him. The only way I can get out is having him there. Instead of getting me out, he is currently choosing to lead me deeper and deeper into the jungle to all the undiscovered wonders hidden in it. There are all kinds of species and natural wonders to find, but there is also junk piles and rubbish everywhere. In order to find the new and wonderful discoveries, Father is helping me find and pick up the junk.
This process of cleaning up poses a hard situation. He doesn’t want me just to clean up, but he wants me to rely on people to take it out of my life. Think of it this way, I can only carry so much before I start dropping it. Trusting friends to help me carry out the trash in my life is the only way I can clean it all up.
Unfortunately for my pride and ego, that means I need to stop thinking about what others think. They usually don’t think what we think they are thinking… Okay, I did say that right.
The only being we should be afraid of looking horrible in front of is Father, and he can already see all of the good, bad, and ugly. We don’t need to hide anything from people, because, if we are truly honest, their opinions and judgments don’t matter. Hopefully they are loving and kind and pick me up and help me carry my trash, but if they don’t, Father will. He can carry all of it if he wants.
I choose to follow Father into the deep of the jungle of my heart and life, and trust his love, before anything else. I will not always do it perfectly, but he still loves.
