Lately, when I tell people about the world race, the first question out of their mouth is, "Are you scared?" Usually the voice in my head is saying yesss, but what comes out of my mouth is, "no."
No?? Why did I say no? If being an Admissions Counselor has taught me anything, it is to think on my feet and speak pretty freely when people are firing questions at me. Ok, I said no, now I need to explain why… Recently, I've had a lot of peace about this trip. I still have days where I wake up and it seems like it's not real, but those days are not as often as they used to be. It feels absolutely right. My usual explanation is that the start of the trip is pretty far away right now and focusing on getting ready to go is really exciting (which is true).
Then the next set of questions start. The "what if" questions… The funny thing is though, none of the "what ifs" that people have posed lately have been scary to me:
What if there's no toilet paper? Haha! I mean, that happens here too… It will probably happen.
What if there are lions? There might be!
What if there are bugs? Ha! There will be bugs…
What if you don't have your favorite shampoo? Well, I probably won't but I'm not very picky when it comes to shampoo…
What if you have to eat rice and beans all the time? I pretty much already do that, so it would be fine!
What if you get married? Umm… I doubt that will happen…
What if you shave your head?? What??
It's funny that all of the recent "what ifs" have been almost funny to me. It's also comforting that the hard "what ifs" on my mind are not the "what ifs" that God puts in others minds to ask me. It's reassuring to be able to laugh and smile when people ask me the "hard" questions.
I am a little scared, but I'm mostly excited. I am ready to go, serve, love, smile, and help in any way that I can. I am trusting, having faith, being still, and knowing that the Lord will take care of the "what ifs."
