If you haven't read Part 1, I suggest you do so this one makes some sense.
Through reading this book (Irresistible Revolution) and figuring out what Jesus was actually all about, my life has taken an entirely new route. It just seemed to hit me all at once how madly in love with each of us Jesus really is. It has opened up my eyes to see other people with the eyes that Jesus sees them and to love them boundlessly.
A week ago, I fantasized about going home to live at my mom's. 
I wanted to get my jobs back at Snowbird and Odyssey House.
Inherit or buy a car that can handle snow.
Get new snowboarding gear.
Buy a better bike before spring time.
Stay at home for about 6 months to get enough money to move out and get my own apartment.
Bask in my introverted dream of living alone.
Get a dog (a big one).
My plans were to settle a bit, to become comfortable. I've been planning to exhale after 11 months of holding my breath. "All I have to do is get through [7 more months] and I'll have my bed back. I'll have my clothes back. I'll be able to do my hair and go the movies and drink from the tap and have nice toilet paper and go to my favorite restaurants and snowboard every day and …" I could go on and on.
But Jesus calls us out of a comfortable lifestyle. There are easier and more comfortable ways to live besides being a Christian. I thought I had sacrificed all of my comforts by joining the World Race but… Something tells me this is only the beginning. God has been clear with me that there are bigger things waiting for me at home than the plans I was making. It will not be easy but it will be beautiful. And that's when I realized the grief I mentioned in my journal (part 1) was for the loss of my old life. The time has come that Jesus looks straight into my eyes and says,
"I dare you to live, dangerously, with me."
Here are a few snapshots from the book that I have internalized and have been analyzing:
–"There is a movement that is bubbling up that goes beyond cynicism and celebrates a new way of living, a generation that stops complaining about the church it sees and becomes the church it dreams of. And this little revolution is irresistible. It is a contagious revolution that dances, laughs, and loves."
–My goal is to speak truth in love. There are a lot of people speaking truth with no love, and there are a lot of people talking about love without much truth.
–The church should not function as an organization but as an organism, alive and vibrant.
–We have insulated ourselves from miracles. If we're sick, we go to the doctor. If we're hungry, we go buy food at the store. If we had enough faith in God as the lilies and sparrows do, we would see miracles.
–The true atheist is the one who refuses to see God's image in the face of their neighbor. (Dorothy Day) When we have new eyes, we can look into the eyes of those we don't even like and see the One we love.
–If it is not born of relationships, if it is not liberating for the oppressed and the oppressors, if it is not marked by raw, passionate love, then it is the same old self-righteousness that does little more than flaunt our own purity by making the rest of the world see how dirty they are.
–The more vigorously we try to root out evil by force, the more evil will escalate. For every Muslim extremist killed, another is created. Likewise, the more passionately we love our enemies, the more evil will diminish.
–We can admire and worship Jesus without doing what he did. We can applaud what he preached and stood for without caring about the same things. We can adore his cross without taking up ours.
