So I thought you might want to know how ministry turned out.
Well I met my person.
This is Susie. She is a lady-boy(a man that dresses as a woman- its the term used in Thailand) that works at one of the
bars we went to regularly. I fell in love with her with her right away. One of
the first nights we stopped at her bar, and I asked a random question about
lights that appeared to be a spaceship.
She was very knowledgeable on the subject, and seemingly a lot of
things. There was something about her that drew me in, you could just see the
hurt and loneliness in her eyes. It was also hard watching how she seemed to
perceive herself. It was always “oh I cant do that” or “ill never be able to…”
the way she looked at herself in the mirror, as if asking “am I pretty enough?”
her bar one of the last nights we were there, with a translator we had only one
night. The strange part was she spoke English and we didn’t really need a
translator talking to her. But it just happened that way. She led us to the
back of the bar, which was also sort of strange because we always sat out
front, but of course turned out to be perfect because it allowed us to be alone
with her, and for her to talk openly. God gave me a boldness, along with a wisdom
that night that worked out perfectly. I began with asking a somewhat risky
question that I had been wondering about- “why do lady-boys choose to become
women?” I wasn’t going to outright ask her if she was a man- what if I was
wrong?! Oh that would’ve been bad, like asking a women when she’s due and she’s
not really pregnant… but she did say that she always felt like she should be a
woman, but choose not to have the surgery for some reason. As risky as that
question seemed, and as bad as it could’ve turned out- actually led to a
conversation about God! Ok if youre wondering how that happened, it was a
series of questions- how do your parents feel about it, how do your
grandparents feel about it, they’re dead, where do you think you’ll go when you
die… Bingo
So here I am, in the back of a bar, in the red light
district, talking to a male prostitute, preaching the gospel- with a red light
shining down on us. All I can say is God is pretty flipping amazing how He
works. Turns out she doesn’t really believe in any god, she said she cried out
to God at 25 and nothing happened, and
since then she just depends on herself. Seems she cries a lot. We told her God
heard her cries. It was amazing how intense the feeling was that God was after
this man. No she didn’t break down and pray the sinners prayer- would’ve been
cool. But I told her that no matter what she believed I loved her, and thanked
her for being so open. She was hungry for God, for something, and I believe
that someday im going to get an email from him- telling me about his new life.
Susie’s real name is Kansinee.
amazing person he is, inside and out. Im so glad I had the opportunity to meet
him, and I wont soon forget him.
