I will start by saying that month 10 is on my list of least favorite/challenging months. Since the beginning, I struggled deeply with feeling burnt out and unmotivated for ministry. Waking up daily was difficult knowing I would not be returning to my tent until late that evening. Although my energy and motivation picked up mid-month, Swaziland remained a test for me in many ways.
I am grateful that through these challenges, God taught me about contentment and the evils of coveting. If you ask a majority of my squad, they will likely respond that Swaziland was on their list of top favorite countries & ministries. Many of my friends thoroughly enjoyed working in the garden, clinic, baby house, and preschool. During buddy time, they were able to teach and play with their buddies with whom they formed an instant bond. Others were hearing God speak to them as they fully encompassed the mountainous landscape around them. As the moth progressed, and my squad mates fell in love with Swaziland and the ministry of El Shaddi, I began to covet their growth and connections.
One evening I read the last chapter of Philippians, and was captivated by several verses that fit my circumstances perfectly.
“Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me. …And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:11-13, 19
During this month God was teaching me to be content. Whether I am having a great month or a hard month, I am to be content no matter the circumstances. I must trust in full belief that God will provide me with everything I need to endure the trial set before me, and that He will be my strength. When I have a hard time connecting to the ministry, when my buddy and I do not understand each other, when the water runs out and I can’t shower for 5 days, or when my lunch and dinner consists of a pb&j sandwich, I will be satisfied knowing my God is with me giving me the strength I need to mentally and spiritually endure.
In all things God is my strength.
