Sometimes I really hate spiritual warfare.
Most of the time I don't feel it coming on, don't realize its there (which probably makes me the worst Christian in the world, because I know I should be able to recognize it and yada, yada, yada, but I didn't… again… lol!) where was I? Oh, right, not seeing the spiritual warfare. The way the devil loves to attack me is by lonliness. I have an unfortunate combination of an extrovert personality and a love language of quality time. Which means when my life gets busy and my dear friends' life gets busy and I'm not spending quality time with people, well satan decides to make me believe that I am not loved or valued by anybody including Jesus.
One would think that after 28 years that one would get over that… well some of us are slow learners. One major way God speaks to me is through worship-music. And it seems as though He brings songs into my life at just the right time. This last Sunday as I was going through my usual depressed woes, it was a combination of How Great Is Our God and Christ is Risen (I think by Matt Maher) and the amazing combination of God amazing beauty, power, etc and His love for us, that 'He bled for us' Ok… I'm just going to post the lyrics to Christ is Risen/Come Awake:
Let no one caught in sin remain
Inside the lie of inward shame
But fix our eyes upon the cross
And run to Him who showed great love
And bled for us
Freely You've bled for us
Christ is risen from the dead
Trampling over death by death
Come awake, come awake
Come and rise up from the grave
Christ is risen from the dead
We are one with Him again
Come awake, Come awake
Come and rise up from the grave
Beneath he weight of all our sin
You bowed to none but Heaven's will
No scheme of hell, no scoffer's crown
No burden great can hold You down
In strength You reign
Forever let your church proclaim
O death, where is your sting
O hell, where is your victory
O church, come stand in the light
The glory of God has defeated the night
O death, where is your sting
O hell, where is your victory
O church, come stand in the light
Our God is not dead
He's alive!! He's alive!!!
Oh so much beauty and truth in that song. Everytime I hear that song, it hits me a wee bit differently. Sometimes its the love of God that He 'Freely bled for us.' Sometimes its the power of Him- that He 'tramples over death by death', sometimes its the blatant in your face Satan 'O death where is your sting'?!?! Which is I think how I'm feeling now. Oh satan, you try, but the battle's been won by the love of Lord our God!!! So amazing!!!
p.s. in addition to prayer in this part of my life, I could use some prayer for life decisions that I'm having to make right now, including where I am to spend (and work) the next 5-6 months before I leave for the World Race. Its appearing that God is just seeming to open the door wide open the last 2 hours for one decision that I have written off for many months. So prayer for wisdom and guidance is requested. Thanks you!!
Here's making plans and God directing steps (and thereby changing my plans!!!)
Sarah
