Randy…this has been one crazy month. A month to celebrate your life for sure! I know this is late, and I thought about mailing you a letter, but that would take even longer…so,
happy birthday!
I don’t really know where to start with what’s on my heart, but since my month in Cambodia, (I’m still in Kenya as I’m writing this…) the Lord has been walking me through some ‘daddy issues’, actually I guess this walk started back in Thailand.
Anyway, The Lord uncovered a big lie that I had been believing my entire life. A lie that said I was not, ‘worth sticking around for’. The lie took root the minute I was born without a ‘father’ and has just been going deeper and deeper throughout my life due to different situations and circumstances. The Lord showed me this lie and showed me how I have believed this lie to be truth my whole life and how my actions have always been a result of this belief.
Lots of crying took place; then the Lord brought you to mind. He reminded me of how awful I was to you and how much I rejected you for the first half of you being in my life, He showed me how hard I tried to make you leave, but, you always stuck around.
You have always stuck around. Despite all the crap that I or Tony or even mom have given you, you have stuck around, and I thank you so much.
This month in Kenya, the Lord has me speaking a lot. He has me speaking to the congregation and to my team about who we are in Christ, about our identities and about what it means to be adopted into God’s family. He has me teaching those around me about how much our Father loves us and accepts us—regardless to our crap and how much we reject Him. And, Randy, you have been the way I have illustrated this love.
So, Ran, thank you so much for the way you’ve loved me and my family for these however many years. I hope you know how much we love and appreciate you.
Love,
Your daughter.
