As most of you know, I had a deadline to meet at 11am today in order to go to Georgia for training camp tomorrow and it was a pretty emotional morning. Trying to figure out how you’ll find $1700 can take it’s toll on you. My mind bounced back and forth between verses as time grew shorter and shorter.
The answer you’re waiting for. Did I make it or not? The short answer is no. I didn’t reach my goal. I didn’t get the money. I won’t be leaving to training camp tomorrow or to Peru in January. Yeah. It’s hard, but God is faithful and He does what He says He will do. He will provide and I will go where He has called me to go. Some of you will understand and some of you won’t and that’s okay.
How can you say He provides when clearly He didn’t provide?
Yes, God promises that He will provide, but it’s not our job to decide how or when. I learned this around autumn time last year; I can be sure of God’s promises, that He keeps them, but there are circumstances where we have to add “if it be Your will,” to the end of the prayer. In this journey, I can pray “God, you are faithful and you will provide,” but I can’t say “You will provide for me to leave in January to these countries,” because He doesn’t promise that. I have to stick to what I know is true and that means He will provide and He will make a way in whatever way He sees best.
When you pray, you have an expectant heart that God will move and fulfill His promise, but you can’t be so set in the details. I know it. I’ve experienced it. God will do what He says, but it’s not always in the way we expect because well… His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts are higher than our thoughts.
Every single day I remind myself that God is faithful and that promise holds true even if I’m not leaving to Georgia tomorrow. God’s called me to go on the World Race and I’m certain I will go, it just depends on the timing.
A couple days ago God told me that He wouldn’t provide the tools for me to go without the providing the means to go so I know this will come to pass.
God wants a willing and obedient heart and that’s what I’ll have.
So with that, I will be deferring to a later route possibly in August or October. I’d very much appreciate your prayers during this time as I figure what God wants me to do. Prayers for peace and comfort are greatly appreciated because although I’m believing God is working all things for good with this change of plans, it’s still hard to deal with. I’d also appreciate prayers for a clear answer for what route I should go on because there are lots of options and options frighten me haha
Thank you to you wonderful people who have messaged me to see how I’ve been doing and been praying throughout this time. Your support is invaluable and forever appreciated.
Sam
