Welcome to the conversation going on in my head the past week or so.
Hey! You there?
Yeah, I’m here.
Uh huh. I’m not really convinced of that.
Wait. What? What are you talking about?
Like I said, I don’t think you’re there right now. In fact, I know you aren’t.
I’m talking to you! Of course I’m here.
Yeah, and the current you is the problem. I’m looking for the old you. The one who started out on this crazy adventure.
Why would you want to talk to him? This year is about growth and change. Why would I want to be like the guy who started out nearly 4 months ago?
Because that guy from nearly 4 months ago had more faith than you. You’re lacking.
How so? I’ve seen so many things that have affected and changed my faith. Its been made stronger!
Ah, okay. Have you stood on any rocks in the middle of a river and made some declarations over a country lately?
No. But…
What about believing that part in the Bible where it talks about casting out demons, healing the sick, and raising the dead? Didn’t you begin this year ready to see these things happen?
Yeah, I still believe that.
You don’t act like it. You could’ve told Dema to get up and walk the other day. You didn’t. Why?
…….I don’t know.
What happened to the guy who witnessed the blind seeing, the deaf hearing, and the lame walking in the Dominican Republic? He wasn’t afraid to ask for those things to happen.
……..
You could’ve declared healing. Rebuked the pain in Dema’s back. All you did was ask for God to do it. Doesn’t seem to take much faith to do that I think. No risk on your part. Nobody knows what you did or didn’t ask for in that prayer. Where was your leap of faith? What changed?
It just sort of happened I guess. I don’t have an answer. Just forgot about it.
Forgot about it? Whoooee! Pull your head out and screw it back on straight. You’ve got others following you and willing to go there with you if you choose to go there. It isn’t just about you.
But I don’t even know what most of this stuff even looks like.
So? What does that matter? You’ve got faith right? It is time to put it to use and trust in the God who placed you where you are now. This race isn’t just about you or your comfort level. It never was. You won’t ever know or see any of these things if you never ask.
No, I suppose I won’t.
Then it’s time to jump. You’ll land right where you’re supposed to be. Hop to it Buck-o.
So last week one of my teammates lovingly called me on this last week and how something has changed between now and when we started out on this trip. I haven't been the risk taker in regards to the faith that I was so gung ho about early on. So I'm looking to change that. This whole year is about taking those leaps of faith. So beginning today really, I'm cutting some things out for awhile. Firstly, a media fast. So the computer, the music, anything electronically entertainment based is being ditched for the next week. The exception being stuff I need to do for the WR. Cut out the distractions and focus more on the relationships. With God. With my teammates. With our ministry contacts. So in part, here's an update. And in another part, I'm peacing out for the week and excited for it! Plus my promise to all of you is that you'll get some updates on things here in Transnistria once I'm back. Love you all!
Here's to Extreme Makeover – Transnistria Apartment Edition
