The other day I took a trip down memory lane by going back to a place I hadn't been in years. The people there had caused a lot of pain for me and I had always felt like an outcast.
I told myself that was then and this is now. Surely it's been long enough and I've matured enough that I can forgive and forget. Maybe.
I walked in and it was strange to see such familiar sights and how nothing had changed except some of the people who looked a little older than I remembered them. Instead of just smiling, waving and then avoiding them, I found myself walking over to them and initiating a greeting.
Maybe I have matured.
And they seemed genuinely happy to see me. "How have you been?" "It's been so long since we've seen you!"
I mirrored their actions of a happy reuniting and put the incident away to think about later.
When I had time to think, God showed me all those times when I felt like I was pushed outside their circle was not an expression of their dislike for me. It was just them being so wrapped up in their own little world that they didn't see who might be outside of it.
God used this to teach me a lesson I hope I never forget. It was not about something I had done wrong, or the clothes I wore, or anything to do with me at all!
With what I know now I don't think I could have done anything differently. But it gives me release from that time when I didn't have anyone to call my friend and I thought it was because of me.
Now I can forgive. But I won't forget because it did happen and it has shaped who I have become.
I'm glad I went back.
Maybe now moving foward on this big adventure will be that much easier.
It's official. My launch is August 1st.
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Thanks again for all your prayers!
