Lately I've been wondering if I'm really supposed to be doing this. Am I really sure I have what it takes to go around the world? Can I think of enough ways to raise that much money?
So I went to the park to pray about it. Yesterday was one of the first warm days we've had this year and I wanted to soak up every moment. I found a spot to sit in the sunshine, took out my journal and listened for what God would say to me.
What I heard was not what I was expecting, but then God is never predictable like that. ("He's not a tame lion.")
He reminded me of all the times recently that I've told myself what kind of person I am. I realized I usually think pretty negatively about myself. Like, I'm not creative anymore, I'm lazy, I'm unmotivated.
God showed me that these were lies from Hell that I was rehearsing in my head. And you know pratcice makes permanent.
So God told me what He thinks about me. The sun shone on my head and the breeze lifted my hair and I could feel God's love surround me as I scribbled out the new words in my head.
Beloved. Royal. Strong in faith. Deeply rooted in God's truth. Creative. Greatly loved.
Yes, loved is in there twice. At the beginning and the end. That's how he does it. And these are a few of the things he sees in me. How can I be anything less when the God of the universe says this is what I am?
So I am strong. But only because I have God's strength in me.
And later that day I found out that my support raising account is over $3,000!!!!! God is so GOOD! And he is taking care of me!
I want to say thank you to everyone who has helped me financially and in prayer to get this far. I still have a long ways to go, but I know God's already gotten it taken care of.
