Let me start by apologizing for that title, as you can see I am about as creative as a rock!
Since coming home from school for summer vacation I feel halted in my growth and walk with Christ. Like there is no one here who is constantly pouring into me and me equally pouring into someone, and discussing the little details of God and searching His heart. (For example, what His laugh sounds like or if He even laughs at all? Seriously though what do you think about that?) For those of you who know me I am a very vocal person and my favourite word is “why” so reading the bible and doing devotionals is awesome and amazing (Duh!) but I need to talk through things and of course I talk through it with God but sometimes I want to just try and figure out what God is saying through others to me like if there is something I’m just not getting.
To say I am heartbroken is somewhat of an understatement because to think a month ago I was running at a constant steady and even fast pace in my walk with God only going further and further and faster and faster, and now I am at a grandma with a walker pace with a 10 foot wall in my path that I have to overcome. (Crazy imagery there, a grandma on a walker trying to scale a ten foot wall?? Intense!) I guess my whole point of all this is to say community is key. Growing up I didn’t understand this like I said in my first blog I didn’t feel like going to youth activities and church were that important, I believed in God and knew who He was (or so I thought,) so as a young perosn I thought I was good. But until I found true community, I didn’t understand how telling a practical stranger (God) your struggles and your thoughts could be so beautiful until I realized that He already knew them He was just waiting for me to seek Him and find joy in Him. Then He provided me with a friend I could grow with and then when I went to college He provided me with a whole swarm of people for me to grow with and run the same path with. So I know in this season of waiting God will provide me with a person or persons I need but only in His brilliant timing. So do not take the community He has provided or the place He has put you and think it is wrong or random because in the end more often than not you will come out changed for the better through Him and for Him.
Prayers for community at just the right time would be awesome and so appreciated!
Thanks for hanging on in that one I don’t know if it was hard to follow but I just felt really compelled to share! (-:
– ReallyRylie
P.S. I have just been taken off the waitlist for Gap Year D so I am officially on the team going to Thailand, South Africa, and Nicaragua! (YAY!!!) With that being said my first goal of $9000 is due in a little more than 3 weeks, on July 2nd. I know by looking at my Support Me bar above I have a long way to go I know that our God is a faithful God and He will not change now, so if you feel lead to give please know I do not take whatever you can give for granted, to me $1 is just as important as $1000, anything and everything helps. Besides monetarily giving, if you could just pray for peace and faith in our all power God and His perfect plan, because from my point of view it is hard to look at the number on the Support Me bar and not get discouraged even though I know that Our God is a sovereign God. I know this is what I’m supposed to do and that I just need to have faith in His plans! Thank you again! Much Love and even more Jesus!
