I think that the word of training camp for me was affirmation. As a precursor to this blog, there is no way that I can even begin to relay how awesome training camp was, looking back on it. There were times that were definitely trying and difficult, but I wouldn't trade those experiences for the world! I will be honest that I went into training camp with a mentality of someone who was looking for answers to maybe not the best question. As a result of that, the first few days of training camp were quite difficult for me. I didn't feel as though I was connecting with God, and that I surely wasn't as gung-ho as the rest of the group that was surrounding me in our worship time and teaching sessions. But God began to show me that I needed to focus on Him, and that everything else will take care of itself. He also reminded me that I am exactly how He made me, and that He made me in his image. Throughout the week, I learned about unforgiveness, healing, encouragement, and had new experiences with speaking life into people as well as witnessing several healings!
I finally met the people I will be spending the next year of my life with, and let me tell you, I am so blessed to call them my family! I met some amazing people this week that I know will stretch and grow me in this next year. As the week progressed, I began to get a joy that I had never experienced before, as I let go of some unforgiveness and refocused my life on seeking after Christ. I relinquished control of my life and relationships. I actually accepted the role being a team leader within my squad. This freaked me out pretty good. But I through listening to the Holy Spirit as he spoke through several people and also just in my spirit, I realized that this was where he wanted me to be and that it was ok to feel "unqualified" and that God was going to do big things in my life. I had words of life spoken over me that I would be doing some serious growing this year and that God would be stretching me and molding me into the man He desires for me to be. Also that being in this place of leadership would be like putting on a new coat in which the arms are a little bit long and the shoulders are a tad wide, and is just overall a little bit awkward on me right now, but that I will grow into this coat, and that it will be busting off of me because it is so tight! God has begun some work in me through this short week at training camp, and I can not wait to see what He has in store!!
