Ever since I got accepted to go on this incredible journey for God’s Kingdom; it has not been going quite how I thought it would. I wrote my letter, addressed evelopes, and was waiting to do a photo shoot for a post card I was sending out with my support letters. All this should have taken a week, rigth? Wrong! Two weeks? Nope! Instead it has taken three weeks, and still nothing.
Everytime my friend is free to take photos and help me photo shop the pics, I have to work. When I’m free he is in class. The things that I need for these pics, I can’t find. I’ve been waiting to get my letter back from someone who proof read it. Everything that could go wrong has. I have been feeling weighed down, feeling raising this much money is impossible, and on that thought should not go. I have been getting attacked from the enemy cause this is not what he wants from me.
I have been learning over this time is what I read in my quite time a week ago; the same thing (sorta) came up in Bible study last night. Psalm 46
“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea,
though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling.
There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy habitation of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns.
The nations rage, the kingdoms totter; he utter his voice, the earth melts.
The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Selah
Come, behold the works of the Lord, how he has brought desolations on the earth.
He makes wars cease to the end of the earth; he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, he burns the chariots with fire.
Be still, and know that I am God, I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!
The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress”. Selah
Two phrases hit me! Come, behold the works of the Lord, and, be still, and know that I am God. The Lord has everything under control. If things were going the way I wanted them with fundraising, I would not be learning anything and not fully trusting the Lord and be still before him.
Bible study last night we were in Exodus chapter 14. Verse 14 says “The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still. He played a song I haven’t heard in a while either helped as well. Shelly Moore band does a version of a hymn called Jesus, I Am Resting.
Jesus, I am resting, resting,
In the joy of what Thou art;
I am finding out the greatness
Of Thy loving heart.
Thou hast bid me gaze upon Thee,
And Thy beauty fills my soul,
For by Thy transforming power,
Thou hast made me whole.
O, how great Thy loving kindness,
Vaster, broader than the sea!
O, how marvelous Thy goodness,
Lavished all on me!
Yes, I rest in Thee, Belovèd,
Know what wealth of grace is Thine,
Know Thy certainty of promise,
And have made it mine.
Simply trusting Thee, Lord Jesus,
I behold Thee as Thou art,
And Thy love, so pure, so changeless,
Satisfies my heart;
Satisfies its deepest longings,
Meets, supplies its every need,
Compasseth me round with blessings:
Thine is love indeed!
Ever lift Thy face upon me
As I work and wait for Thee;
Resting ’neath Thy smile, Lord Jesus,
Earth’s dark shadows flee.
Brightness of my Father’s glory,
Sunshine of my Father’s face,
Keep me ever trusting, resting,
Fill me with Thy grace.
Amen! This is what we should we want. Resing in Him and let HIm work not only in us but through us because we are resting in Him. This song and those verses have brought me peace, and will not let the enemy knock me down. I am the Lord’s! This is all in your hands, Father; let your will be done in this!
