This past week I found myself faced with a choice to believe a lie about my identity and self-worth or to seek and accept the truth that Holy Spirit had already planted in my heart. The lie was that I was easily forgotten. That I was less than other women and honestly that I couldn’t truly be loved. Tears filled my eyes as I stood in front of a mirror and made my choice. I chose the latter, that I am in deed fearfully and wonderfully made. That God has made plans for my future for His glory and my good. That I am not forgotten or lost. I truly am a daughter of the King. I proclaimed that I trust Him with my identity and my desires to be loved. At this point the tears were flowing even more than before but not because I was overwhelmed with sadness but because I was filled with joy and thankfulness that I not only know the God of the universe but that He knows me. Like, He KNOWS me?! I am known by God and loved and pursued?! It finally sunk it.
In the past I would have focused on the lie but because I have spent this past year asking God to show me my identity I think that He honored that by showing it to me in this moment.
Last May I asked God to give me a love story. I wanted a man to come and sweep me off my feet and make me feel loved and beautiful.
Yesterday as I was reading over this plead I had written in my journal I realized that God is answering that prayer. Not yet by a man but by Him.
He is teaching me about true love.
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
I know we see this verse at ever wedding and True Love Waits conference we attend but when I read it now I do not just read it as a charge to be this but as a description of the Father.
Yesterday I was in dispair and my Father came to my rescue. I love Him for that.
This post is personal but it’s just so good and its all for His glory so I had to share what He is doing in my heart.
Love you all!
