The Lord will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace. Exodus 14:14
I am supposed to be writing blog posts weekly and I have failed miserably at that. This season in life is busy and there have been many nights I have sat down with the intentions of writing and nothing comes to my mind. So I have decided it’s time to give you guys an update on where I am in life and how I am feeling about this crazy adventure that is happening in 7 months (AHH!)
So my sweet Nanny has gifted me the most perfect pack that I will be using to lug around all of my material items for the whole year. I went with a 65L Osprey. *fingers crossed it will fit all of the lovely items I need (want) to bring along with me.*
I have also purchased my sleeping bag and it finally came in the mail today! It’s a rei sleeping sack!
Things are starting to feel crazy real since buying some of my gear. I am so excited but to be honest I am totally overwhelmed.
When I first was accepted for the world race I knew that I was going to be stretched and challenged and by the end of it there would be a lot of growth and I was excited to experience that on the field. But I didn’t realize that way before I ever was going to be stepping on a plane I was going to be put to a test of ultimate faith. He called me to be a part of this trip. So in return that means He has called me to trust Him for 16,000 dollars. Just the thought of that makes me squirm. I feel so uncomfortable about this. This isn’t safe at all!!! That is so much money and this is going to be a journey and so far it has proven to not be the easiest. For a couple of weeks now I have lived in anxiety town. My question I have continued to ask myself has been “HOW AM I GOING TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN? HOW AM I GOING TO CONVINCE PEOPLE THAT I AM WORTH INVESTING IN? THAT MY DREAMS ARE FROM THE LORD? HOW HOW HOW?”
And then God was like “Silly girl, I am the One who moves hearts to give. I am the One who provides funds to all. I am Jehovah Jireh” Soooo my perspective has changed and I think it is in a transition of some more change at the moment. It has always been so easy to go into cruise control and just “make” things happen instead of trusting for discernment and provision from my provider. My human heart just makes me so sad sometimes because God has never not provided. When I look back at my past years He has always taken care of my needs. So why is it still so hard for me to trust Him? This is one of the first times that I am actually facing this issue and asking God to come to my rescue. To give me faith that is unexplainable. And I am choosing to trust Him.
He is my provider.
So in saying all of this I ask for prayer from you all.
And if you would like to be officially be apart of my prayer team send me an email at [email protected]
