(A journal excerpt from training camp dated 10/18/10:)
So, saw a seashell [in a prayer], felt like going surfing this morning, missing the beach, got to sing Your Love is Deeper Than the Ocean, which was perfect. This is all about cutting ties and leaving everything behind and a seashell is so appropriate because it comes from a creature that left it to build a bigger and better home. Even though its beautiful, in order to survive and progress, it needs to move on to something bigger, to help its growth. Step off the edge and leave it all behind.
So, saw a seashell [in a prayer], felt like going surfing this morning, missing the beach, got to sing Your Love is Deeper Than the Ocean, which was perfect. This is all about cutting ties and leaving everything behind and a seashell is so appropriate because it comes from a creature that left it to build a bigger and better home. Even though its beautiful, in order to survive and progress, it needs to move on to something bigger, to help its growth. Step off the edge and leave it all behind.
I told Kayla about my “vision” of the seashells, and she totally affirmed it and likened it to a bigger coat, and growing into a bigger coat when the current one gets too tight. And how inbetween coats, or shells, you’re naked, vulnerable and susceptible to who knows what, in this transition, and that’s when we really really need to rely on God. Pretty awesome.
P.S. I got the same rush from worship that I get from the ocean. Yessss!!!
(Journal excerpt from today, 11/15/10):
Vulnerablility sucks. Between confessing a crush, dealing with insecurities and car accidents, vulnerability is not the funnest place, at all. How I could have used my journal, three weeks ago! But no; Rosa contracted a case of A.D.D. in Georgia and left her journal, being distracted by too many “shiny objects.” Luckily it was found and returned at the perfect time. The past few weeks have been trying and what I really haven’t done is press into God completely, only half-way. I’ve let myself get so carried away with the “could’ve, would’ve, should’ves”, that I haven’t listened, or even tried to listen, to where God has been trying to direct me. Can I have my next seashell, already?! Preferably something in a size 5? But I need to endure this transition and constanlty remind myself ATL!! (ask the Lord!) And may I add how grateful I am to have such wonderful, loving friends & family that have definitely been placed in my life to speak truth into me and show me glipmses of how Christ so cherishes me.
This is a heck of a ride! Can’t wait ’till January. =)
