So, my teammate, Matt Patch, introduced me to a singer named Sean McConnell. In short, he is amazing. One of his songs is called “Madly in Love with You”. Let me say this in no uncertain terms: I love this song. It’s sweet and is supposed to be what God is saying to someone. And I feel like, maybe, it’s what God has been saying to me this month. So, here are the lyrics (I tried to find a Youtube link, but Youtube and Turkey aren’t friends, apparently..).
One of the reasons I love the song is that it acknowledges the pain and hurt and bewilderment I think we, as Christians, can feel. And, if not all Christians, at least me. I love to think that maybe that shooting star, or that gorgeous sunset from Montenegro (see the picture!) was a proof from God that He is pursuing me. Maybe that it was a reminder, Him saying, “I’m still here! Please don’t think I’m gone because I don’t feel near right now.” But then I also wonder why on earth God would take time to send me a shooting star (or anything else) when 24,000 people will starve to death today. I’ll forego a beautiful sunset to give one of them a sandwich and a hug. But then I remember: I don’t have God’s mind. I don’t have God’s eyes. I’m praying to see the world as He does, to see people as souls that God desperately loves, to hear what people are truly saying when they speak. But it’s slow, and like the song says, answers don’t come all at once. (I bolded the parts I really like, put in colors or larger the “responses from God” that I really like, and need to assure my mom that I do NOT cry myself to sleep ever. I am very happy here!)
See you down there everyday
Trying to find a different way
To build some kind of latter to the sky
Trying to find some way to see
Secrets of eternity, and they don’t come all at once
And you don’t know why
Well how do you think it feels to hear you screaming out my name
While all the while I’m trying to open up your heart
See you when you cry yourself to sleep
It’s tearing me apart
I know you wish you could see me
That’s the way it has to be
Someday you’ll understand,
don’t you lose your faith in me
I know you wish you could hear me
Sometimes it’s so hard to do
But every morning sunrise it says
I’m madly in love with you
Yes I’m madly in love with you
Yes I’m madly in love with you
Yes I’m madly in love with you
I know that you’re waiting for
A chance to come in from the war,
If only a moment, if only a day
A place where you feel safe and warm
A sanctuary from the storm
Until all of these questions fade away
But I cannot count on all the signs
You’ve passed away as mere coincidence
And im running out of ways to break through
Like a lonely lover, Waiting by the ocean
Ill never give up on you
I know you wish you could see me
That’s the way it has to be
Someday you’ll understand,
Don’t you lose your faith in me
I know you wish you could hear me
Sometimes it’s so hard to do
But every morning sunrise it says
I’m madly in love with you
Yes I’m madly in love with you
Yes I’m madly in love with you
