For homework I want you to ask God what He thinks of you…
…was what our speaker said during 'Missions' week two years ago. Simple. So I asked God during worship that night, honestly not even expecting an answer.
What I heard was one word: Just.
Just? Pfft. That can't be right. I break rules left and right. Sure I whine when I'm treated unfairly but that cannot be a qualification for 'just'. Let's let the thesaurus decide, Lord.
So I flipped through and looked up every synonym for the word 'just' I could find. Among them I found words like: blameless and dependable and pure and honest…legitamate.
Really, God? You think this about me?
Mhmm.
I walked into class the next morning excited and proud. Just. The Lord thinks I'm just. And as 'Missions' week continued a theme was repeatedly brought to the surface. Callings. That big, heavy, scary word. God's calling on your life. My whole life I had heard people say "God has such a big calling on your life." and each time I laughed it off mainly out of ignorance.
Haha I don't even know what that means…
But I thought, as I was journaling one night that week, Why not? Why not ask God what He wants for my life? What's the worst He could say? Nothing? Silence from the Lord probably would have been better than what I heard when I asked.
What do you want me to be, Lord?
Lawyer.
WHOA! Not expecting that, Buddy. A lawyer? I mean, I wanted to do that when I was what? Like ten. That was years ago. I'd have to go to school. SCHOOL?! OH GOODNESS SCHOOL. I haven't been in school for about two years now! That stuff is way over my head, Lord. I can't do it.
Exactly.
What?
The only way that you could do this successfully, is with My help.
And there it was. And there you have it.
At this point you're probably wondering why I'm in Malaysia and not in college if I believe God called me to be a lawyer two years ago. And the only answer I can give you is this: I had things I needed to see and people I needed to love in order to appreciate the next season of my life.
College is the next season of my life. That is all I know. And I am going to move in that until God gives me a red light and a different map.
