I'm going to just start this blog off very honestly. I am supposed to…suggested to, write at least 8 blogs a month. Eight blogs for each country. As you can see I have definitely fallen short in this department. I'm going to blame it on my constant fear that you're going to judge me. So this is me tossing that fear to the side and gettin' real. I didn't think I could get any more vulnerable than I have been lately but God has been proving me wrong about that. I guess He's just trying to say "Rikki, you should be vulnerable more often…like 8 times a month…yeah?".
Tonight I found myself scrolling up and down facebook pages of the family I grew so close to in Australia and Mexico last year. Started tearing up when I thought about how powerful these people were in my life. And then click! I realized it doesn't have to be a 'were'. They can still be powerful in my life if I allow them to be. If I want to I could hang on to memories that are good. I don't have to get sick thinking about how they are thousands of miles away. I don't have to. Just like I don't have to have this constant fear of connecting with the people I'm surrounded by this year. I can someday look back and scroll through our memories that we are making now.
Which brought me to a quick and happy moment of thinking about how much I have changed since Australia. How much I've learned. That's all. Just as simple as that. I've grown. Kind of like the feeling I used to get when I went to the doctor, heard that I was 4' 3" tall then returned and found that I gained half an inch. Just some tiny growth that is out of my control. Something Higher did it without me even noticing. How fun.
