The past couple of days have been both amazing and difficult. A few days before my silence fast I heard God say the words silent and being quiet in the village. I couldn’t quite put it all together so I ignored it for a couple days. I asked God if he meant for me to go on a silence fast or just walk around the village in silence while praying. Well, on Sunday during church I clearly heard God say 2 days of silence. After spending the afternoon in worship with God and asking him again he clearly told me this was what I was to do.
He said “in the quiet I will speak” Wow I thought that is powerful and so true. I also then heard that what we have to say is insignificant to what God is saying to us. But do we truly listen to his still small voice? I often say to people that God doesn’t speak to me or must be on vacation:) Well he does speak to me of course but I choose not to listen sometimes. I love to talk instead of listen.
I also had a hard time with this fast because I love to sing out loud to worship music. I will sit on the dock or at the house and just sing out to God. It is exhillerating and fills me up. I often love to get lost in worship. Just me and God. I heard God say recently that he wanted me to dance in him through music. I now start to move with the music and getting more free in my worship.
Needless to say the past 2 days have been a time of listening and worshipping in silence. What does that look like? It means listening to the words of the music and singing it from the heart but with out audible words. God still hears it. I find that now I can let God speak to me through the song. Do you ever truly listen to the words of a song? Do you try to understand the message in them? I often get to busy singing with the song to listen. The past couple days I had the chance to listen to the words and they are powerful.
My friend also said she heard God say that now I can’t question if it was God’s voice or not. Often when I hear something I question it and go to someone else to see if that’s from God or not. Now I couldn’t do that. I knew it was from God and went with it.
Here are some things God spoke to me in my silence.
Have fun in your worship
Would you give up everything for me?
What does it really mean to lay my life before God?
Some visions:
Jesus setting me free by opening the prison bars around me…FREEDOM
Jesus and I rolling on the grass playing and laughing
Me jumping off the porch and God is catching me
