A few months back I was talking with a friend, trying to explain my heart. It was not an easy thing to do.
There was a disconnect between fluidity and speech. I was trying to explain how I feel unsettled and out of place- like a nomad, but in search of a community or place that feels like home. And how when it seems like maybe I am starting to feel settled, I feel led somewhere new and it frustrates me. It frustrates me because i want to belong somewhere, to feel deeply rooted and connected, but at the same time my heart longs for something different. There is a place, i think, that will feel most like home… but will probably always be coupled with the wandering spirit inside me that is antsy for what’s next. My soul is restless.
She didn’t really get it.
The next morning I was reading “Kisses From Katie” and wouldn’t you know, her words articulated and gave life to my confusing sentiments. It was as if God was whispering through those words, “my darling girl, I know how you feel and you’re not alone”.
Peace swelled over me as I realized the truth in that whisper.
“”””where is home? I have come to the realization that I am somewhat of a nomad on this earth. I am learning to be okay with that. Human beings long for a place to call home, a nest, a sanctuary of their own. I have many and none. For so long my parents’ house was my “home,” my safe place; now it is a place where I feel strangely disconnected. My apartment is “home” for now, but it doesn’t feel personal yet… My heart lives in so many places. With so many people. But God whispers to me that I really have only one home, and that is with Him. i will never be content on this earth. I will always be a nomad. It was meant to be that way. My heart was created with a desire for a home, a nest, a sanctuary, and that can be found only with Him in Heaven. And I will continue bouncing from one home to another, loving with everything I have in whatever location I currently reside, excitedly awaiting the day when I am called heavenward and He says to me, “welcome home.””””
-katie davis
Do you have the goosebumps? Because I do.
Guys,
I just want to obey God. I don’t just want to dip into what He has for me, I want to drench myself in everything He has for me.
and…
I’m moving to Nashville tomorrow. Fancy that!
