I've been sitting here in awe of God all night, I mean I knew He was good but dang, He is GOOD. Like just so so good, all the time, for no reason at all, expect the fact that, that is what He just is.
Anyway, I was like I should post a blog because I haven't in awhile but I don't know what to write. So I decided (like right now as I'm writing this) that I'm going to just share my what God has been doing in my life with everything.
Today I begrudgingly went to community group, not that I don't love it, because I do, but I had had a long, exhausting day and I just wanted to go to sleep. But I went, and we prayed and worshipped and listened to a sermon about glory. At first I wasn't too impressed, but the Holy Spirit was moving in that room and in my heart. And I left so full, after being so empty and hopeless for so long.
Lately, God has been teaching me to trust Him in every aspect of my life, that when I start to get anxious and worried about things I am doubting His plan for me. He has been teaching me that it's not about me, it's about Him. I am living on borrowed time. He's been telling me over and over again, “trust me Rebekah, trust me.”
And I've been trying to trust Him with my fundraising, I really have but it's been so stressful because I am so behind, and I'm not where I thought I would be and I have a deadline in 18 days that I am $3,000 short of.
But today, in group, I was reminded that everything is for His glory. It is all about the Lord's glory. Everything. And I was reminded of a prayer that I don't think I fully understood the first time I prayed it, and I didn't even remember praying it until I found myself praying it again to myself in the car.
But I prayed that my life fully glorifies God, and that the things that happen in my life have no other explanation other than the fact that God is good and all glory go to Him. And I prayed that God provide the money for this trip in such a way that the glory must go to Him and that there is no way that it could be mistaken that the money came from God. And I prayed that He burst out of the box I continued to put Him in, that He just shatters my expectations.
That being said, I have 18 days until my first deadline, I am $3,000 short. I have training camp in a month and I have not bought any of my gear. BUT I am not going to be anxious or worried or stress about it because God is good, He has a plan, He provides, it is about Him, not me and He is bigger than the box I put Him in. I trust that He will provide everything I need in due time.
So goodnight, God be with you and glory be to God.
