This
past couple of weeks my team and I have walked through some spiritual highs and
some spiritual darkness. I personally am dealing with much more than
manifestations of darkness but with life
questions that need to be dealt with. I am attempting to process these
questions with God and my team. Many questions have been asked and not all of
them have been answered. But i have faith that my God will reveal the heavenly
answers to my heart. As i seek his face and his wisdom he WILL be faithful to
answer me. I no longer want to rely on commentaries written by earthly men, I
want to seek revelation of scripture from the ultimate creator of knowledge. So
in our morning feedback session lots of thoughts were provoked and I just
wanted to sit and cry in the presence of my God. He showed me several things in
Matthew 8. Matthew 8 deals with several stories of Jesus healing people in
different communities. I am just amazed at the amount of faith these people
possessed. They did not ask for Jesus to physically come into their lives and
change everything. No they asked him to just say one word and touch their
sickness. That is the amount of faith that it takes to be healed. It is the
knowledge that just one word and heal everything and then to the faith to take
what you have seen Jesus do previously and to believe that he can show up in
your life as well. Dealing with my situation on the race honestly I was seeking
the Lords faith but i truly lacked the faith to believe that what I read in the
bible applies to my life. Matthew 8: 17 “He himself took our infirmities and
bore our sicknesses.” That darkness truly has no power of my heart because I
have been bought with the blood of Christ. That the stories in the Bible truly
do apply to my life. I am being stretched to live out the life the bible speaks
of. To not only have the faith that moves mountains but to believe that with
that faith that I can move those mountains. I am moving into knowing that as a
daughter of Christ, God has equipped me with what i need to change the world
for his glory. And then in turning using this knowledge to change my life and
to live out this faith filled life. That it would not just be words but it
would be a life filled with actions that speak of this faith. I no longer want
to just see words on a page but to see life filled scriptures. Colossians 1: 16
“For by him all things were created that are in heaven and that are on earth,
visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or principalities or
powers. All things were created through him and for him.” My desire is that I
would learn to walk in this knowledge, that whenever I face darkness that my
father created this and he has power over it. And he WILL hear my cry and WILL
rescue me out of darkness. I no longer want to just know about Gods power but i
want to live out Gods power.
