Let me first apologize to everyone about my lack of blogging. I had an extremely tough semester and it took everything from me just to complete school. I have thought about and prayed over the world race everyday. It was constantly on my mind.
Lets just jump into things!!! So this week has been especially hard for me. My heart is overwhelmed. The Lord has been incredibly gracious and has slowly let the reality of it all slowing set in. So this week, my heart broke with the realization of all the relationships I am leaving behind. I sat in worship at church yesterday and just cried the entire time. I knew 3 years ago that when I answered the call of God on my life, that it would cost me everything. But little did I know that it was true. I feel like everything that I could surrender I have, everything that I could give up I have. I said God what else can you possibly take from. I will admit that I was a little angry. But after a few minutes of me venting to God. I simply prayed, God I still say yes. I say yes to everything. I felt a breakthrough at this point. For me, knowing what its costing me and my heart still saying yes, felt so incredible. To reach this point where I know that there is no Plan B for me. That God has invited me to go on the race and that this is my ONLY option. And I WANT IT!!!!! My flesh is dying and my heart is breaking, but MY God is my substance and he already knows all and will carry me until my race is finished.
I know this was an extremely open and I was very raw with my feelings. But I chose to live life this way. So that I am always real and honest with everyone, because who benefits if your fake with people. No one will, so I encourage to live an open life and influence people with your ability to be completely honest with them.
