bRoKE:n

 
On February 13^th I left for a 4-month Mission in Antigua, Guatemala as part of a Mobilization/Discipleship Launch Team.  Blessed, I learned from my leaders what true submission to ABBA looks like.  Blessed, I learned from my team members what unabashed love for ABBA looks like.  I learned to wait on the LORD.  I learned to seek him in ALL decisions.  I learned to be silent before the LORD.  I learned to be guided by His SPIRIT. 
 
But in all this… I struggled. 
I struggled daily with not DOing things.
I struggled with feeling like I was not known by my team members.
I struggled with not being able to go places by myself.
I struggled with constantly looking inward and not DOing outward.
I struggled with seeking God as a team and receiving different answers. 
I struggled with people saying this is what “the Lord wants” but not being in agreement with them.
 
On March 22^nd I told God I wanted to go home, I was tired of struggling.  On March 23^rd I begged HIM to fill me with HIS peace if HE wanted me to stay.  On March 24^th God released me.  HE offered me a bRoKE:n choice:  to stay and grow spiritually, exponentially in Guatemala or go HOME.  I chose HOME.  HE filled me with peace. 
 
I received the blessing of release from my leaders, Jonathan and Ann, as well as from my team members. 
 
Although filled with peace, I am also filled with grief.  I made a commitment and I broke that commitment.  When given a choice:  I chose the road with less struggle.  I have a lot to learn from this experience; I have a lot to process about this experience.
 
But this I know.  In my peace and in my grief, I know my REDEEMER LIVES.  HE can redeem all situations, all relationships, and all hearts. 
 

 
~ Please feel free to email, call, skype.  It would be my joy and honor to share with you this hard and bRoKE:n part of my FAITH journey.